R.I.P. Robin Williams

I'm not saying its wrong or right, I'm only speaking from the perspective that I perceive was my father's ... knowing all of the drama that surrounded him at one time, his only way out was to take his own life. We don't really know what goes on once someone has died (however the fact that my Sam-cat has become a healer and a helper at the rainbow bridge, gives further hope to my own beliefs, and this is from where I speak). I was the child that my father was watching over when I was troubled at 9 years old; I was the child he tried to visit and frightened; I was the child that watched Carousel two nights later and understood. I think suicide victims just see no other way out; no matter what they once said or did. But I also think that they work it out on the other side. And who knows What Dreams May Come, because in the end, no matter how many friends we have who say they will be there for you, we are alone inside, and we are alone in death, and it is our soul that must find its way back again.

Again, I'm not saying its wrong or right because it's not for us to say. Robin Wiliams was brilliant ... beyond brilliant ... he exuded that brilliance. And we laughed when he "went off" like a comedic bomb on stage, no one knowing really where he would end up and loving every minute but I wonder about the voices that were inside, if the outside voices were so loud. And no one knows that more than the bearer. 

The most brilliant genius artists of our world were borderline - what they portrayed on the outside was not what they heard on the inside. A sensitive person (because to be that kind of an artist, you need a certain deep sensitivity) can try and drown those voices with drugs and alcohol, but drugs and alcohol wear off, and prescribed meds make you feel really okay after a while so you stop taking them ... and at the end, you are left with - yes, yourself. 

And yes, we all want our troubled friends and family members to reach out when they are this troubled, but the most inner thoughts will stay inner.

Some will survive and move past and some will not. 

I mourn Robin Williams. And I hope he finds the right souls path. I wish him peace.