I'm
not saying its wrong or right, I'm only speaking from the perspective
that I perceive was my father's ... knowing all of the drama that
surrounded him at one time, his only way out was to take his own life.
We don't really know what goes on once someone has died (however the
fact that my Sam-cat has become a healer and a helper at the rainbow
bridge, gives further hope to my own beliefs, and this
is from where I speak). I was the child that my father was watching
over when I was troubled at 9 years old; I was the child he tried to
visit and frightened; I was the child that watched Carousel two nights later
and understood. I think suicide victims just see no other way out; no
matter what they once said or did. But I also think that they work it
out on the other side. And who knows What Dreams May Come, because in
the end, no matter how many friends we have who say they will be there
for you, we are alone inside, and we are alone in death, and it is our
soul that must find its way back again.
Again, I'm not saying its wrong or right because it's not for us to say. Robin Wiliams was brilliant ... beyond brilliant ... he exuded that brilliance. And we laughed when he "went off" like a comedic bomb on stage, no one knowing really where he would end up and loving every minute but I wonder about the voices that were inside, if the outside voices were so loud. And no one knows that more than the bearer.
The most brilliant genius artists of our world were borderline - what they portrayed on the outside was not what they heard on the inside. A sensitive person (because to be that kind of an artist, you need a certain deep sensitivity) can try and drown those voices with drugs and alcohol, but drugs and alcohol wear off, and prescribed meds make you feel really okay after a while so you stop taking them ... and at the end, you are left with - yes, yourself.
And yes, we all want our troubled friends and family members to reach out when they are this troubled, but the most inner thoughts will stay inner.
Some will survive and move past and some will not.
I mourn Robin Williams. And I hope he finds the right souls path. I wish him peace.
